Where to go next

When I was young I thought that quarter life crisis is just a lame excuse for young adults who are not doing any good in their lives. But here I am, 22 (23 in a month’s time), admitting that I may be currently experiencing THE quarter life crisis.  

These days I can’t help but doubt the soundness of some of my decisions.  

Sometimes I think that quitting my current job was made hastily. It’s funny looking back at how desperate I was to get this current job. I thought this is perfect considering the compensation and the office’s proximity to our house (just 20mins!). After submitting two hundred resumes and attending a dozen of interviews, I finally got in. This was my dream job. But after two months, here I am quitting. Apparently, I do not like it here. It turns out that the job I thought I would love is actually a job I loathe every second. 

Oh, and don’t start with me about grad school!!!  I mean, what cosmic powers urged me to sign up for it? Sure I love learning new things.  Plus I know that finishing a master’s degree is another oooooh point to add in my resume. This is for a brighter future right? I repeat the last sentence to myself everyday hoping it would make sense.  But do I really need this? (Can somebody please say yes?) 

And why is it that everyone my age (even younger!!!) is so excited about having his/her own family. There are weddings and baby showers everywhere!  Don’t get me wrong though. I mean, I am completely aware that I’m not yet ready to start my own. Maybe in three to five years, but not now. I’m just wondering what’s with all the rush and why am I not feeling it?   

SO WHAT NOW? 

I always make myself believe that I’m in for something great and fab. But now I feel that everything seemed so far fetched.  If only I can fast-forward to five years from today. I am crossing my fingers that by that time, I already have a job I love, finished my master’s degree, and have my own family. 

FOR NOW…

Hello there, quarter life crisis. I am embracing you with open arms today. But just today, deal?  Tomorrow, I want you out my door.      

PS. I will be starting to work again in Nov. 8.  It involves a lot of travel, they say. And that sounds promising.  :)